well, a group of 30 of us went into chaiyaphum.
its the north eastern side of thailand.
i thank God for this trip seriously.
i believed that He sent me there for a purpose.
come to think of it, im really blessed that daddy allowed me to go MT.
its like, my first time travelling overseas with friends, and he js allowed me to go so readily.
through this trip, of course i did learn many things.
i got to see so many things that i dont get to see in Singapore.
i realised that i even matured through this trip.
i learnt how to depend on God, and run to Him each time i face problems, be it minor or major problems. each time im having emotional problems, its God that i should turn to.
of course, i did face spiritual attacks. i faced one during the first night rally.
but even through this, i finally understand why its so important to be prayerful.
because its a spiritual warfare that we're all facing in thailand.
i used to take praying lightly. i didnt know how serious the spiritual warfare was initially.
but even through this, i got the point, and that is, each time when i didnt/stop praying, im allowing the devil a chance to even attack me.
yea, i know i realise this abit too late. but its better than never yea. and im just being frank of what i've learnt, and this is it.
another thing that God even showed me is how much He loves each and everyone of the thais.
He doesn't only loves us, but He loved and loves the Thais.
to be frank, when i went into the prison for ministry, i was actually despising the criminals.
as in, i looked at them with my own perspective, with my own eyes, and yea, i did really discriminate them. it occured to many of the thai guys too. i was seriously disgusted by the guys in thailand, not all, bt many. I knew it was wrong, i began praying, and God even started to reveal to me how much He actually loves them, and willing to overlook their past. yepp, i even began to learn how to look at these people with His loving eyes, instead of mine. He changed my point of view. Oh, how gracious He is. He's willing to even give them a chance, no matter how big their sins were previously.
Even through this trip, God actually broke my faith barrier, and that is my stage fright and lack of courage to go forth and share the gospel one to one. During MT, i gotta step out of my comfort zone to even do things against my will, like my unwillingness to go up stage and such. & yepp, u know what, now, i dont even fear going up stage! He broke them all! He empowered me, and gave me the courage. so what is stage fright now? no kick. =/
I gotta admit that before this trip, i didnt expect God to even use me to share the gospel to others, and even work through me. I looked down on myself, i felt incompetent. & yea, its really amazing to see how God is actually using me for His works! now i know, im competent in Christ. i may be weak and small and powerless, but nothing is too small for God to use.
there's so many more things i wana say, but im lazy to type out.
so just ask me if you wana know.
in addition, i just want to even thank God for team E&M. they're a lovely bunch of people, and yea, they're crazy and fun to be with!
yepp, thank God for His wonderful and beautiful creations.
the sunrise i saw, the starry nights, certainly they were heartwarming.
well, seeing such beautiful sceneries, they liften up my mood, they brought peace to my heart.
you know, the nights are never like what you see in spore?
the stars there are like never able to count. countless stars! they're like everywhere.
i know im kinda emotional, but each time i see such beautiful scenes, i'd tear. LOL.
but yea, thank God for allowing me to see His beautiful creations.
and yea, its really amazing to see how God opened doors and yea, its really a joy to see so many souls saved!!
hmm, back in spore. i miss mission trip alot. i miss the sharing to the nongnongs, i miss singing thai songs, i miss acting in skits, i miss my area team people, i miss the local christians like kif and the others [i duno how to spell their names], i miss prayerwalking in the villages and giving out tracts [is tt how u spell it?], i miss night rallies. i miss all! ))): i can't wait for the next missiontrip.
now, back here, i even want to really reprioritise my life.
i want to put aside everything. the main focus in my life is God, and yea, whats more important than a relationship with God? whats more important than living my life for Him, doing His wills, and impacting the world for Christ? xD
yea, i even want to start impacting my family. i want to see daddy going to church again. (:
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had a job interview at eunos just now.
at first, i was only to accompany karen for the interview, ended up, i just joined her.
so yepp, its venture era at eunos. sales promoter.
and its such a coincidence to even see jeremy kok lam and hongyu waiting at eunos mrt startion too! ended up we're there for the same company. -.-
singpore is really so small. BECAUSE THAILAND IS TOO BIG. =/
hmm, considering.
