why?
i thought i told myself not to be affected by it?
but,
why do tears still fall each time when i saw it,them,all?

How time flies.
Its so fast.
It seemed like it all happened just yesterday.
Looking back on my life..
how things have changed.
I really wanna go out wid them again.
To go crazy w them again.
But, its so condradicting ehh.
I wanna hang out w them again..
but yet, i dont wanna too.
cos i dont wana be reminded of the miseries i've had too.
cos i have decided to give up my passion, my interest.
it seemed as if past 3-4 yrs' efforts have gone down to drain.
but i guess that's the only way to get me moving on?
and not letting my past memories to pull me down.
but it's so hard..

Lord, im feeling very terrible.
Please take my pain all away.
Pull me through this God.