hohoho! its gonna be d last paper tmr. physics..aww. so many formulas. hrmm..today had such a crazy time in mac wid apple n evan. imagine both evan n apple's phone got locked at the same time. haha. dat kuku evan go play wid the sim code. in d end gt her sim card locked. lols. hahaha. well..so paiseh in mac lo. we guys were like laughing and playing, so loud..like no one else's business. LOL! bt it was fun larr. end up me and apple so tired aft all d laughing. and i was like..falling asleep =x haha. i was telling apple n evan dat nxt time when we go out mus really wear a plastic bag over our heads. our face all thrown le lor. hahaha. wad more wearing school uni. hahaha.

alright. i dunno if i made the right choice in gg to kbox wid d gals to celebrate. somehow..jus felt so weird. the atmosphere, the feeling will be so different to me i assume. no idea la. i dunno. it wont be like wad it used to be in the past..to me. evt will be so different. how i wish tmr will nt come. really cant imagine wad it wld be like tmr. though i noe i needn't worry bout tmr, for tmr will worry for itself. bt still..im afraid. im scared. jus hope dat i will enjoy tmr's celebration? hope so. bt im jus looking forward tmr bcos i'd be gg to shop b4 d celebration. haha. den aft dat, guess i'm gg to my second home again? haha. boat quay la..lols.

anw..past few days weren't really good. pulling a long and sulky face whole day long since tues. dunno why either. have been tinking thru lotsa tings durin the two past two days. have been trying to adjust my emotions, my mood, my feelings, my thinkin and evt larrs. it's just so tough. bt i'll persist on no matter wad. haha. wadeva. so many tings happened. regarding lam. regarding edward. regarding. regarding..my studies. regarding myself. i dunno la. wadeva. i duno wad happen to lam. when i heard the news frm apple ytd mornin.. felt jus so sad. i dunno. felt so pissed. felt so angry. felt so..i dunno. a mixed up emotions. first thought dat came into my mind was..my fault. i duno why i was so affected either. apple told me not to blame myself, dont let dis ting affect me.. i duno. still somehow, im affected. my eyes became so teary. my mind became so tired. evt jus dont make sense. its only till the night..dat i decided to lift evt up to God. and yea, im not gg to be bothered by all these tings anymore. as for my studies.. been failing and failing. almost every test. i tink so far i've only passed my chi and the ss class test? i dunno. gotta buck up. haha. wadeva. anws.. im slowly picking up the broken pieces. im slowly getting back on the right track. im slowly gg back into Father's arms.=))

alrights. so yupp. did discipleship wid ed today. hahahaha. i was so scared larr. so stressed up.. i scared i say wrong tings or wad. haha. wad more its my first time discipling someone. hahahaha! LOL. woah.. haha. didn't realise dat i typed so much. lols. todays post is sure a long one. hahaha. aww..gonna study again..

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When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe.
Above all the others, we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice.

GLORIOUS ONE.