aiyoh. ytd gt bck ss and chem results. was really really disappointed. i didnt expect to get such low marks for ss. one digit. 9.. chem expected to fail larr. ahha. below 20. and its like..dis time rnd de ct. failed almost all sub xcept chi. jus hope dat emaths n phy will pass lo. anw. was really really upset over it. you told me nt to be too affected by it. you told me dat u wont feel sad over ct n mye results. like u said, is u ma. nt me ma. yes..mayb i am like you in the past. hack care dis hack care dat. dont even care bout studies at all. bt now is different. i doubt you'll understand how i feel. my dad trust me so much dat in terms of studies, he leave it all to me. im like letting him down, letting her down and most imptly, letting myself down. cant you ppl see dat i'm trying to change. im trying to concentrate on my studies more. bt..i dunno why. i'm like keep kena distracted. dis three mnths..failed almost every test. xcept for chi and ss SEQ. dats all i suppose. now is different. 'o's are nearing each day. haiyah. i dunno larr. went to see mr ng ytd. he look at my paper. asked me, how? feel disappointed ah? of cos i am larr! wadthe..ask such a qns. and of cos my ego, i said still ok larr. WADEVER! can somebody tell me wads the point of studying with such results i got. can anyone tell me. i want to give up so much..but...i cant. cos i noe the real failure is when we didnt even try.

anws, ytd kbox turned out so different frm wad i expected. haha. was one of the craziest and highest, wildest and funniest kbox i've been to. had so so super much fun towards THE END. dat means, b4 dat, im like still trying to adjust myself to the atmosphere. wadeva. lalolalo. went to my second home again. sat by the river. plugged on mp3. looking out into the sea. thought of so many tings again. perhaps..maybe i shld give my mind a break as wad ws said. maybe im tinking really too much. i dunno. took bus 502 back home. and well..reached home arnd 1 plus. again unexpected, daddy didnt scold me. hahaha. only called me and scolded. fell into a deep sleep durin my bus ride. i was so so asleep dat i didnt even noe dat somebody sat down bside me. and i almost fall on dat person. ahha!