after four miserable days.. finally everyting is coming to a close. finally. after four days of tearing, four days of depression.. haha. finally can really laugh. haha. everyting's over. mrchia talked to me today. fine fine. talked to him at least feel btr. told him how i felt evt. and he's gonna tok to my dad. and yepp, today came home. dad's attitude towards sumhow changed again. tink mrchia toked to him alrdy? i duno. dad suddenly gave me money. suddenly wana sign up this plan that plan. all for my sake. and yupp, feeling really guilty. i have to study hard for my mye. i have to score good grades to gain back my dad's trust. to give him assurance, as wad mrchia said. bt.. i've lost all my confidence. no confidence at all. even mrchia oso can tell.. its so hard to build back my confidence.. just so hard. changing seats soon.. haha. wadever. i dont care much. well, jus talked to alex online. somehow.. felt so much btr toking to him. haha. cos of all his sec4 stories.. which really sumhow let me feel much more btr den him. HAHA. no offence. still.. i noe i let dad down alot.. im sorry. bt please at least trust me one more time. haha. and yepp, end of this yr.. i wana go spca adopt dog. haha. do good deeds. haha=)