dunno why.
mood swings?
sighs.
one minute was laughing away cheerfully,
the next minute was weeping away.
-.-
guess its not only today ba.
past few days oso liddat.
spiritual attacks?
hmm, possible.
God showed me something today.
i was like taking bus 852 w grace today to westmall for lunch.
and it was like, there's this old lady sitting in front of us.
she started like talking? very loudly.
nono, its mumbling loudly. cos cant really make out what she's saying.
den i heard this very one word : SALVATION.
and i told grace, she must be talking bout salvation.
hahaha. at first we still thought she's some mad women or what,
cos she was like talking to space, not to us.
and later, she started to talk to us.
she shared with us the gospel!
what "Only Jesus can save you." etc etc.
and she took out this photoframe and later a small book called, 'The key to heaven' i tink?
and can u imagine her emphasising on the gospel thruout the whle bus journey,
and oso sharing with us that the type of responses she get when she share with ppl on bus.
she went on talking until we reached westmall? very long right?
haha! and i rmb her last sentence, " Don't thank me, thank God, thank Jesus."
WOAH~
yea.
so actually, God revealed to me something.
so yupp, first of all, i really admire this lady for her courage,
for her passion and love for God, the compassion she has for the lost souls.
and its like, i cant imagine her repeating this everyday.
it has become her evd routine.
can u imagine her like sharing in bus every single day,
she's not even tired of doing this everyday.
and yea, she surely did faced many rejections, and maybe jeers too,
but yea, she still carried on sharing, despite being rejected and such,
those rejections didnt stop her from sharing.
and its like, cant we youths see the point?
okay, mich and huiting oso got approached by aunties sharing the gospel with them.
its like, duh. why isit that its the older ones, the aunties, who are doing and not us youths?
okay, street evangelism is different thing.
how about js sharing on bus. its like not many of us will do that aint it?
and the answer is simple.
its because we are afraid of losing face.
we're afraid of being paiseh la. haha.
and we're afraid of rejections too.
how true. cos me oso la!
haha. but yea, God really opened my eyes real big today.
and yea, im really encouraged by this lady. seriously.
haha. maybe, i should try sharing on bus nxt time too =)
yea had many many mock exams past 2 weeks.
well, im pretty pleased w my mock exam results,
except for chemistry,
which was one great disappointment.
at least this time round,
for the first time in these 2 years,
my phys teacher wrote one good comment on my script:
"Improvement".
finally. at least this very one word surely did motivate me.
and again, for the first time,
i scored 100 out of 110 for emaths p2.
duh, it was bcos the paper was really easy.
but it was really really surprisng too.
LOL.
yupp. this was supposed to be posted three days ago:
thanks wanzidearie jacq hiroki huishi.. &&& diona!
though yea, u ppl didnt do anyting bt js sat beside me,
i could alr feel the warmth.
i guess im oso one of those few who prefers to js cry,
and not having my friends breathing a word,
but js staying with me, beside me.
and yea,
how much i realised i'll only cry out all my probs to one person,
and He's my best friend, Jesus.
i dont know why either,
though having know this point that man fails me countless times,
but not God,
and being hurt and disappointed by my much treasured ones,
i still chose to place such high hopes on ppl,
even after learning lessons.
i brought all these upon myself.
its kinda weird aint it.
at least that day, many things came to light.
it always turn out this way,
that the ppl whom i close with, whom i can really relate to,
whom i trusted so much, whom i treasure much,
will always be the ones who will js bring pain to me,
who will js disappoint me.
but yea, who cares.
i dont wana care much either.
i js know, i still have my God,
and yea, i do know that i have other friends who cares.
such as, DIONA!
im really touched by her sms. so unexpected too. =)
& yea, im struggling hard.
To forgive.
and i know, i have to forgive, to let go of the pain in me.
i shall lift them all up to God:)
i need You Jesus,
to come to my rescue,
set me free.
