& so ytd.
morning had mass school flag day.
wasn't feeling right when i reached school.
i felt so.. empty.
felt so like.. lonely?
i dont know, but i think i just gotta retreat myself to a corner to settle my heart down first.

yepp, my class was stationed to somerset.
rather tiring, & now i finally undst how tired those ppl whom i normally rejected in donations.
cos i was lazy to stop and take out my wallet and donate la duh.
but be sure that i'll donate the nxt time rnd if i encounter any!

sham yanto yonglun were practically slacking la okay!
haha. but heh, they walked all the way from orchard emerald to youth park to take balloon for me!
thanks lots peeps. much appreciated!
haha. and i actually had 2 balloons as mine & sham's tangled. so i took both!
but bcos u see, im sucha nice girl(-.-), i decided to cut out one and give it to a little boy i saw on the mrt.
hahaha! and sadly enuf, while walking back to sch from mrt station, sighs.
my balloon flew up. and gosh, i was screaming so loudly! cos i want a balloon!
haha. and bcos u see, i was like sucha small kid screaming, n hiroki buay tahan me!
haah. and so, he gave me his balloon, which is much bigger than mine! LOLS!
alright, enuf of crapping here.
but it's been such a while since i went out w this bunch of peeps. how i miss sec 2's life!

followed by church.
i was incharge of icebreaker.
sorry peeps if evt were in a mess, for it's my first time doing it la.
the previous time was just playing pictionary.
i was super high during icebreaker, and as expected, i was worn out after that.

& hehheh! once again, i was the first one to share testimony!
i realised that my fear of sharing is gone la u see.
i dont dare to share in the past, and my heart'll be beating so fast, and my body will shiver.
but now, i felt so so much btr! compared to the past!
as i share, i began to overcome my fear.
and later few other testimonies by cg mates followed by gideon sharing.
i was like so so tired that i dozed off certain points.
im so sorry! cos my head was in pain too.

sermon was great i must say.
or shld i say my whole day was great?

cos i rmb praying in the morning while doing flag day,
as i was so irritated and wanted to faster finish up the last few stickers first, so i can rest.
and i was like, duh. no one came.
but aft i prayed, hahaha! ppl just kept coming in! =))

and also later both cell sharing and sermon just spoke to me so much!
beneficial to me, just when i needed answers to my questions.
& yupp.
i realised that i've been wanting to live up to people's expectations, and not God's.
and that i've been wanting to please ppl so much instead of pleasing God.
like what derek tagged that it's so hard to please ppl as there are many of them, but we just gotta please one God.
friends have been hurting me unintentionally or intentionally i dunno with their words.
and it's been like affecting me kinda badly.
but from what i learnt during ytd's sermon, we cannot let what ppl's words that hurt me to control my life.
we cannot let our past to take control over my life. so yepp. im not gonna be bothered much too.

& yupp. once again, as expected, God answered my prayer that im able to attend biblestudy today!
daddy didnt allow me&carlisle to go bs last night, cos gotta pray my ahma 100th day.
and i started praying. and yupp, today, when we're in the car on the way home,
daddy suddenly told me to cab down to church l8r on, he give us money.
i was like so SHOCKED!
God gave me more than i needed.
I only asked for my daddy to allow me n my bro to attend bs.
but yet, he still provided me money to cab down so we wont be late.
and in addition, while we were waiting for cabs, at first there's none. but l8r, two cabs came tgt!
oh gosh! My God's such an AWESOME GOD! He provides everything that i need, and gave me more than i needed! AMEN!
Glory to God. =DD




oOPS. i just told sumthing to the wrong person accidentally! -.-
okays. only he knows i know he knows we know. heng ah!