Worthy is the lamb.

thought through many things just now.
& yes.
i am so glad that i didnt make the wrong choice months back.
i can't imagine if that time..
if i chose to leave Him,
what would be my life like now.
will i be living in darkness, in misery, in confusion so on?
i just wouldn't dare to imagine.
i bet my life now would be like hell.
still, i'm glad that i didn't chose to give up at that time.
i'm glad that i made the right choice.
i'm so thankful for His faithfulness.
that He never let me go at that time.
He is all that i need.
i realise how much He meant to me.

being a christian doesn't mean an easy life,
with no problems, no sorrows blabla.
it's not easy and never easy at all to be a christian.
sometimes, we're required to let go of things that are so dear to us.
of cos, we're bound to face rejections from people.
also, we're sure to have many discouraging moments.
it costs to be a christian.

you aren't the only one who's going through a lot.
there are many more who's far worse off than you,
going through much more than you.
i've oso gone through alot.
maybe not that part of kana beaten lar.
but i sure did kana many scoldings and insults from my daddy.
i sure did kana threatened many times too.
im oso hurt by his words.
furthermore, how i wish my mother can be here beating me too.
you're not the only one w a broken family.
i ain't the only one w a broken family too.
yes, although my mum may have died, but i know that im so much more fortunate.
at least im not an orphan yea?
and furthermore, i did have a chance to experience love from a mother.
it's time to learn to look at matters positively,
look at it with another perspective.
you're aren't alone.
you ain't the only one.
in addition, we have God.

& yupp.
you aren't the only who's facing rejections eh?
i too did faced many rejections from my friends ehh.
but who cares?
for i knew they are recognising me for my faith.
that's a good thing.
and that it's a time to stand up for my faith.

furthermore, from what i've learnt from Acts,
i seriously admire Paul.
he not only faced rejections,
but he oso faced persecutions,
imprisonments, death.
people trying all ways to have him killed.
though being warned beforehand, but still, he continued to preach the gospel.
if even death didn't stop him from loving God, from preaching the gospel, from standing up from his faith, why can't us?

you mentioned that you can't hear from Him no matter how much you desired for Him.
maybe its time to ask yourself?
have you been sinning?
did you confess your sins?
for what i just learnt ytd during discipleship,
that the Holy Spirit can leave us.




okay.
too much of my crappings.
i dont even know what im writing.
i mean, i dont understand lar.
gosh.
whats wrong w me.
couldn't express out what i wana say.
and sighs, i forgot what i wana say while typing all those.
aiya.
what'm i saying.
haiya,
i dont care.

ps. this is meant for her. but i hope she did see this ehh.