disappointment.

yet again.

i thought i've changed,

for the better.
but..

seemed like,

im back to my old self,

once more.

anger, envy, jealousy,

is enuf to kill one,

to ruin one's life.

yes, im a victim of it.

& i dont wan it to happen,

at all.

oversensitiveness..hatred..

shit.
what a disappointment i am.

yes. been having moodswings i must admit.

yes. been allowing my emotions to control me.

so yepp.

walked home. from school. left school arnd 1230. reached home arnd 2.

sun was scorching hot, shining down on me. but still, felt like walking home.

thought walking home could help me to sort out my thoughts.

thought walking home could help me to find out wads really wrong w me.

thought walking home could..

but..kinda disappointed. it seemed like a wasted trip.

but, somehow enjoyed walking under the hot sun.

im trying very hard.

can't you see it at all?

i dont wana feel distant from you anymore.

i wana have a breakthrough.

i want your love to fill me up to overflow.

i wana experience you once again.

i wana silence from you no more.

i dont know why im liddat now. i wasn't like this in the past. until one day..
when she told me how she felt about them and evt. only did i realised and agreed w wad she said. and since then, i've been so sensitive towards them.every little actions from them just makes me so frigging terrible. i dont know..

i know its pure jealousy. i want it no more. i want love to fill me only. no other elements. pure love. true love. and i wana spread the love in me, spread His love to everyone out there. i wana bring everyone to come to know of His almighty name. i wana bring glory to Him. but it seems so hard w the current situations, w the current me. yes. its oversensitiveness. i wana remove them all. yes. i'll LIVESTRONG. but how far can i go?..