today's xmas. and dis yr's xmas jus seemed all so different. another yr had passed.. so quickly.. without her celebrating xmas wid me for the 4th yr. and we're nt gg to celebrate xmas as one whole again. it's not gonna happen today, nxt yr.. and forever again. but today, it's the start of me celebrating x'mas with God. woohoo~

christmas now means something different to me. in my past whole life, christmas to me is about receiving and giving away presents, eating and celebrating. bt today, i learnt something new and understood the real meaning of christmas. christmas is the day when God came down to Earth, to save us and to give us eternal life. it's the birth of Jesus christ, who died on the cross for our sins, and so that we can go the perfect place-HEAVEN. isn't it jus so awesome? cool! and that's why you and me can be here.

dis yr's xmas seemed so boring yet meaningful. mornin went to graveyard. aftnn went to westmall to help dad buy phone. evening went to aunt's hse to eat..followed by swensens wid st jovin huiqi jw cy bc. had my fill.. wid a plate of fish and chips and 3 bowls of salad [thnx to st jovin who doesn't like salad] or shld i say coleslaw? wadeva. somehow enjoyed my time wid them.

anyway.. yea. actually wanted to go evan's hse countdown. asked dad and he dont allow.. and surprisingly.. he answered me in such a calm tone. wanted to talk back.. bt somehow i suddenly felt something holding me back. and i felt so loved at that time. and my heart softened and didnt talk back to daddy. wow. amazing. and yea.. i could tell dat my daddy loves his daughter alot. he sacrificed himself in the rain for me. jus so wonderful. but the sacrifice God did for us is so many times greater den the sacrifice my daddy did.

and now it's 12 am.. and of cos MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!